knowledge

knowledge is what makes us interested in everything. sure, we cant know everything. but that puts the excitement into life. we would be so bored and purposeless if we knew everything that there is to know. good points are brought up in the essay saying that we do not even encompass the capacity to know everything or understand it. our lives are just journeys that we take on your way to try to achieve Hindu moksha or Buddhist nirvana. that is why, in my opinion, we had religion created or developed in the first place. we wanted the answers to the questions that we so desperately think and worry about it only makes sense that we would create this alternate universe. but if these questions were to be answered then the purpose that we have given ourselves is null and void. all of life is just learning. and i think that is the main point of the essay. learning is what makes everything worthwhile. without that we would have nothing to do. we would all be in on the secrets so the anticipation of the game is over with. i had a teacher that told me one time that the anticipation is the best part of anything. that it is even better than the thing you are anticipating itself. i would have to agree with him. its the unknown thats exciting. the universe is so complex. we cant even understand a grain of salt. something that seems so simple is, in reality, something more than you could ever understand.

One thing that annoys me is when you are texting someone and having and good ol conversation and then they just stop talking. Like that. So warning no nothing. It is so aggravating. Also something that annoys me is when someone texts you and they ask a question that would elicit a big long reply and you call them and then they don’t answer. Like you are obviously with your phone I mean you just text me. Unless you text me then threw your phone into a large body of water I expect an answer to my rings. Its annoying. My biggest pet peeve though is when people try to set a table and set the silverware wrong. Like if the blade of the knife is point away from the plate instead of towards it, I have to fix it. Like come on people we all know how to set a table and if you are trying to do it right then do it right. It takes the same amount of time to place the knife the wrong was as it does to place it the correct way. Another pet peeve of mine is when people drag their feet while they are walking. Like on my goodness no one wants to listen to that! Pick up your feet. It takes almost the same effort and sounds a lot better. You also look kind of stupid when you drag your feet. It makes you slouch or hunch or something. Just not stand correctly.

I think I have no learning curve. It has to be just straight and flat. I am a facebook addict. Okay, I am not as bad as a lot of people and I am not even really an addict but I still go on it a lot. Most of the time I don’t even do anything, I just stare at the same damn page that I was staring at 5 seconds earlier. So where all this talk about a learning curve comes in is the fact that most of the time, I would say at least 75 percent, I get pissed off when I look at facebook. People just put stupid stuff on the website. I guess I bring it on myself because I could easily avoid not getting pissed off by just not looking at facebook then everything would just be peachy keen. But, alas, I cannot part with it. They must put nicotine in the system. I even do it unknowingly nowadays. My fingers automatically type ‘www.facebook.com’ when I get on to any interest access page. Frankly, it is quite annoying. But I don’t think that I cant stop cold turkey. I am way to nosey and curious about other people’s business that they so willingly put online for everyone to see. I love it when people fight on facebook. Its great. I get all the drama without actually having to be in it. It is like my own personal soap opera. I am not saying that the pros out weigh the cons, just that I am not going to stop anytime soon.

We really are obsessed with sex in this country. I have been watching Weeds lately. Hilarious by the way. And you can just tell from looking at the different covers of the DVD boxes from the different seasons that sex has much more emphasis put on it than it did in each previous season. I think that if we were more open about sex and nudity like other countries in the world we wouldn’t be as interested in it and it would not sell as well. I have been to other countries but I guess I haven’t seen that many foreign commercials or movies or tv shows. I do know that there has only been one on screen kiss in the Bollywood films. That has to count for something. Though I think that goes against what I said earlier. Anyways. Why are we so interested in sex so much? Maybe we are just like Freud said and we are all just natural born sex addicts. I am not sure he said it completely like that, but close enough. Oh! So this is cool. I learn in psychology on Friday that they have found significant evidence that homosexuality is linked to biology or nature rather than nurture. That was really cool to find out. I mean I have heard all the arguments and of course heard the ignorant people that try to change the way a homosexual person feels and calls it a sin or whatever and now I like that they are proved wrong. That they indeed cannot help it. Take that.

One of the things that I have noticed more now that I am in college is the fact that a lot of people are really religious. I am not sure if people just didn’t talk about it as much in my high school or what. Maybe it is a southern thing. Advocating it, not religion. I am not that dense. Anyways, since being down here I feel like a lot of people speak out more for their God. This isn’t a bad thing I guess. Just a different thing. I love religion. I think it is so interesting. To be truthful the thing that sparked my interest when I was younger was the Karl Marx quote, “religion is the opiate of the masses”. I think that is just perfect in describing what religion is to people. Whether their faith is accurate or not aside, they use the calming effects of religion to ease their pain I suppose. Death is scary but it is also inevitable. Actually, you will probably speed up your death if you worry about it all the time. They have totally linked stress and heart attacks. Maybe instead of religion we should just all use opiates. But that doesn’t seem like a very good idea. I don’t want the guy that is operating on me high as I kite. I guess that’s also where weird cults come from. They just want to feel a sense of purpose and belonging and future. Though, I don’t think that would sway me to drink cyanide punch.

Over the weekend I watched the Lord of the Rings trilogy. It wasn’t the first time that I had seen it. One of my friends had never seen them before so we watched one a night. It was nice. I also have found out that I am in love with an elf, Legolas of course. Also as I have gotten older I have come to realize that there are a lot of scenes in that movie that defiantly give the wrong impression of the relationships between the Hobbits, especially Frodo and Sam. Anyways that was pretty cool. I live life on the wild side as one can see. One thing that surprises me every time that I watch that movie, especially Return of the King, is the fact that Frodo is a little bitch. Like it is just a ring! Like why does he get sick and stuff. I mean I know that it drives you mad, but REALLY??! Collapsing right before the entrance to the volcano thingy is pretty weak. He had like 100 yards left. Also he cant fight to save his ass. Literally. Sam fought off the big spider thingy. Frodo just stood there and got stung by it. One of the other hobbits killed the shadow demon king thing and what did Frodo do? He got stabbed in the shoulder by it. Always needing to be saved that Frodo. Moral of the story, if you want a bodyguard don’t chose and emotional half-ling.

words i over use

I have never sat down and thought about words that I over use. I am guessing that I use the same words over and over again. Most people do in my opinion. This is the reason that you can see a phrase written down and be able to identify the speaker. Probably like most teenagers, especially girls, I use the word like a lot. And probably um. I have noticed that as I have gotten older I have started to use more childish phrases or words and saying from older days. I think this is really cool. I obviously don’t have a good sense of what is cool or not. I have taken to saying ‘play’ instead of saying ‘hang out’. I think that it is cute. Its not that I try to use language that isn’t appropriate for my age group or my era I just think that everyone talks the same way and I was to be different. I guess it is just my conditioning that I want to be an individual. I try to not over use words. I just like to spice things up and use different wording.  One phrase or word that I use a lot, and that I am very upset that I do, is the word ‘gay’. I hate that people saying something is ‘gay’ if it is uncool. I cant act as if I don’t say it. I mean I was a middle schooler too once. But I think that is a word that is used in the wrong way a lot.